Saturday, September 23, 2006
Trying is over-rated.
Captain Kirk:
Spock, We're extremes, you and I; you're overly rational, and I'm always ready to jump into the fire. Reality, however, lies somewhere in between.
1
I tried to just be friendly cos i was feeling optimistic, but i got it slammed in my face. Being rational and abiding by silly rules we made is just half the journey. What about feelings? i never agreed with this whole rational approach to relationships and friendships. Everything has to have a balance of emotion and rational thought. Star Trek taught me that. You should watch it. You say you've got nothing much to think about,
so what's going on here? Is there something more to this than you are telling me?
2
I tried to give this particular person a chance at the possibility of friendship, especially after blowing me off for the past 3 weeks. Some things are just hard to break. What are you doing? Giving me a pity sms? Get over yourself. I'm gonna ignore you from now on. You're not even worthy of my friendship. No, i
won't see you next friday. Funny.. our non-existent friendship was over before it even started. A blip in my life story.
3
i missed her lots today. I'm worried that things have moved past the both of us to reach out and catch each other again. Reading her blog now, she sounds like a totally different person from the one i remember. Maybe she's happier without me, and i should be prepared to close up all the holes in my heart, but even with this thing having over my head, i still hope that i'm not too late... silly me. I can't wait till wednesday, but i'm afraid that i won't recognise the person i meet then. And that'll just tear me apart.
Did i turn you into something you're not? and now that you're free, you're back to being you?4
Raraaraaaarrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!! BAH.
5
empty again.
sunken down so far
so scared to fall,
might not get up again.
so i lay at your feet
all my brokenness
i carry all of my burdens to you
All of these things
held up in vain
no reason no rhyme
just the scars that remain
all of these things so much afraid
scared out of my mind
by the demons i've made
sweet jesus you've never ever let me go
oh sweet jesus, never ever let me go.
