Someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you if i could ask God just one question... why aren't you here with me tonight?
posted @12:10 PM
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
There's only us, there's only this forget regret, or life is yours to miss no other road, no other way, no day but today - Rent Finale (B)
My life of late has reached a dull nyeah (if you don't know what the is, try saying it with a sian tone, starting the beginning syllable strongly and ending with a kind of nuah sound.. "NYEE-eaaah"). Thinking about old friendships/relationships that have come and gone, and the new ones i've made. Wondering what i'm doing with my life and where it's going. Have clear options but no clear decision yet. BAH.
I was feeling a little musical tonight. Strange since my song has been silent for quite a while now. My song is still relatively silent, but i remember that song i wrote with anna many years ago. Now she's married and she doesn't write music anymore. People with talent but no more ambition to write music. Myself? No talent but HAD ambition hahaha... really envy and feel sad for those who have chosen a different path - ie. a desk job - other than what their abilities can provide.
But i suppose at least they made that choice themselves and on their own accord. Here's to remembering old times.
Why For You
Music: Anna Yoong Lyrics: Shane Pereira
I made a stupid mistake today Falling for you so hard this way I've given my sanity for an angel Within my grasp so far away
refrain one: Drowning in this feeling why I just don't want to let you go I just want you to notice I just wanted let you know. I just want you to notice I just wanted let you know
I can't breathe without you why don't i see that I can't see My self is dimming my soul for you Pleading for love to set me free
refrain two: You just want to break me down. That smile so cold yet so warm, so set. I'm getting so sick of this game But my heart It's not done with me yet.
bridge: why can't you look past the lies and see me for who i am you turn your face away and then you say...
final refrain: You just want to break me down. That smile so cold yet so warm, so set. I'm getting so sick of this game But my heart It's not done with me yet.
I'm getting so sick of this game But my heart it's not done with me yet
posted @10:54 AM
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Friday, May 26, 2006
drum and bass tonight. Gas Haus.
as my 3 yr old half-sister would say: "Yet's Go! Yet's Go! Ishowyou ishowyou!"
... and in other news, this idiot fucker just came in the room, sat down, asked me if i would mind putting on headphones instead of using the computer speakers, and i thought, hey sure why not maybe he needs to do work. without exaggeration, he got up and left less than 40 seconds after that. MOTHER FUCKER! No points for guessing which fucking nationality this guy was. How can you say i'm generalizing and stereotyping when every SINGLE one of these arseholes are like that??!!? Chao Chee Bai! Kah nee Nah!
I'm not sorry i'm being vulgar cos its pissing me off. Triple BAH!
posted @2:23 PM
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
of grades and students...
One of my students got an A PLUS for soci... is that even POSSIBLE?!? She's a smart one. I wonder how everyone else did...
... and my heart is still pounding from a conversation i'm having in my head.
posted @10:20 PM
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
All these bloody men!
A common exasperated sigh i hear from women. Generalizations aside, this week has been the epitome of complaints against the male species. A friend was complaining about her jealous boyfriend who demands all but compromises nothing, another about some ass of a hole who is looking for sexy booth girls for a roadshow job that requires you to wear spaggheti strap tops and micro mini skirts (you even have to submit full body, top and bottom photos for the application), and yet another of a married lecherous lecturer who loves the company of single young gorgeous post and undergraduates for drinks after work. In light of that, last night I was musing with a colleague about the government's preoccupation about graduate women not marrying the multitudes of lower status men, and he made a joke that i found profoundly amusing:
me: hahah ya lah gahmen now regret educating women too much. Some take this emancipation to the extreme and demand the husband take care of the kid and work while she just concentrates on being the sole breadwinner.
K.X.: no lah that's why more and more men are marrying their maids.
me: ? why?
K.X.: think about it. they cook, clean, look after your kid, remind you of your appointments, look after the house, know your family inside out, probably made friends with your friends who come over, and like your wife you pay them either with gifts or monthly allowance... only thing you don't have is sex what! so marry lah!
hahahaha hilarious! Men! buck up and go get a better job or study some more, otherwise you'll have to marry your maid!
posted @1:01 PM
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
Gays, Hair, and Switchfoot videos...
There's something strangely unsettling about going to a salon and getting your hair washed by some totally gay ah beng who is not even remotely good looking, having him gleefully probe your ear with his finger through a towel to dry it, then going into the corner with his equally gay but even less good looking colleague to check you out, discussing very loudly in chinese, assuming that you don't understand, on whether you are malay or indian.
*first the banana GAP now this... i must be giving off gay vibes again.*
And in other news, check out the coolest Switchfoot music video ever!
posted @10:43 PM
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Monday, May 15, 2006
You want BANANAH???
Today i took taxi to a lunch appointment. The driver was an ah pek who kept talking to me about traffic and weather (it being heavy and hot) when he turns around and says "you want BAnANA?". And i'm like... kwa simi LJ??? So i said uh no thankew uncle.. then he GIGGLES like a giddy schoolgirl. Wah lau eh! I tell you ah, SinGApore also got GAP leh. Simi GAP ah? Not the ang moh version of Giordano leh. i'M talking about si GAY AH PEK lah!!! Then HOR, he keep putting his hand on the back of the front passenger seat, which is like DAMN near my leg lor.. kah nee nah if he touched my leg I was all set to karate chop his face man.
Then nebermind ask one time also swa lah, HOr? But NO! Must ask again, "YOu want BANANAH???" This time he pulls out this fcking yellow short banana and strategically placed it on his lap NEAR where HIS real BANANAH was lah! Wa lau eh! Wor kah li kong ah, si gay ah pek ah damn buay kan one leh. Some more when i getting out of the cab He want to give ME 50cent to drink kopi! Siao la! Usually passenger give taxi ah peck 50 cents for KOPI this siao ah pek want to give me lim KOPI! Kana SAI lah.
Buay tahan LEH.
posted @3:21 PM
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
depressed.da vinci. dissertations.
Am all alone in the room. Trying to do my thesis. Hate my dissertation. Hate sitting here all alone thinking about my dissertation. Just want to run away from it all. Hate sitting here thinking about not doing anything about my dissertation and yet not having anything else to do. So just sitting here. yup. Noone to have tea with cos noone is insane enough to come to NUS during "summer" break.
Looking forward to tomorrow but tomorrow ain't coming fast enough. Wish i could just sleep now and get it over with.
MDA says it didn't make any cuts to Da Vinci cos they looked at it from a secular point of view and hence "fictional". Wonder if someone made a movie of the Prophet Mohammad whether they would let it pass through censors. Wonder if they thought the plot of kill the malaysian PM in 'Zoolander' was real (and hence non-fiction) and based on a actual plot that leaked out from someone's foreign affairs dept that's why they banned it. Or wishful thinking. I Tsk you. Not that I'd support anything to ban the movie... if anyone sent around that darn chain email about how they're collecting names to ban a particular movie (ever got one of those?) I'd probably hit "reply all"and put in "Praise the Lord but you can kiss my ass!" as my contribution. Funny how when they make controversial stuff about Christianity people lap it up and the movie earns 300 billion bucks, but try doing it to Islam or certain governments and you've got 300 billion bucks worth of riot damage. Wonder if it has anything to do with Christian thinking and the overrated so-called enlightenment. Wonder if anyone is bothering to read this.
posted @5:03 PM
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Take the time and Watch this it's f*cking Funny!!!
Watch this crazy gay jap guy try to get into Tomy Toy company to get them to make a toy out of his character. Damn funny! You won't regret it!!
posted @1:02 PM
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
Ah... the smell of Sunday Morning!
It's sunday morning. For the first time in ages i slept damn early on a saturday night and woke up at 830am to the sound of my idiot dad (whom i have since forgiven for his moment of religious madness) preparing lunch. Its 1030 now and i can smell the beef rendang stewing... hmmmmmm. Take my hat off to my dad (or cap, anyway), he can pretty much cook almost anything - western, chinese, peranakan, eurasian, malay, indian (ok, maybe not japanese - even then if he can find a good recipe he just might try it!). yum yum can't wait for lunch!
My cousin sent me another funny sms again. We don't talk much but he sends me these weird messages every once in a while. "FIFA has come up with a new ruling: all goalkeepers must be women. Because no matter how you try, they never let the balls in."
Wah Piang.
Leave you with this one for the day.
"A very old man walks into a bar and sees a beautiful young woman sitting by herself. Making his move, he sits down next to her and says: Hey pretty lady... Do I come here often?"
posted @10:52 AM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
Why call yourself a Catholic?
My dad and I went at it at lunch because he insinuated that I was a wishy-washy Catholic for eating meat on Fridays. Poor mum was sitting right in the middle of it, so she just sat and kept quiet. He was being a total ass by citing Church doctrine and law and whatevers, rejecting my answer that the Church also amended that so-called "law" to not just meat but any other form of sacrifice. He said that logic was ridiculous and what is it that I gave up instead of meat. Why should I tell him? He'll just pass his own judgment and say its not worth the replacement.
So i asked: Are you attacking ME? If you are, then fine. I don't pretend to be a great Catholic, that's your own perception. Sorry to disappoint. But the governing logic of the law still applies - people have the power to determine and discern the other ways in which they can sacrifice if meat is not a big deal to them. Still he said that was illogical cos as far as he is concerned, the Church never withdrew that law (obviously showing that he has NO bloody idea that the concepts "withdraw" and "amend" - which I am asserting - CLEARLY mean different things). And does that mean I can go for monday mass and replace it with a sunday mass? I said: That's exactly what Jesus meant when he said "spirit of the law" vs letter of the law. Why so calculative? If i can't make it for sunday or sat, then going for a monday mass means I am MINUS 1 compulsory Mass? How are you EVER going to replace THAT? After you DIE? FUCKWEED!!!! (OK, didn't say that last part).
First of all, that is NOT "LAW" as in DOCTRINE you ass, and it only applies to this region of the world. Second, LOOK WHO's TALKING you HYPOCRITE. Someone who always says "Religion is between me and GOD, and all the rituals and rubbish in Church is just for man to appeal to God. It doesn't matter." - I can show you what the Church says about that man! MYOPIC PRICK!
I'd ask you to kiss my ass if it was hairy but it's not.
posted @1:09 PM
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